Sociology class

Good morning ppl! Bright and early on a Saturday morning. I'm writing again to express some thoughts I had been having about my Sociology lectures that have been bothering me a little, more so when I'm in class and it's happening there and then of course. So here goes...
Aside from the content which I am still having a bit of problems with (I'll get to these problems later), I have been quite bothered by the fact that the lecturer hardly notices me in class. So why do I say this? She hardly notices me in class when asking for opinions or answers to her questions when I am in class. I sometimes even get the feeling that she is purposely avoiding eye contact with me or even when she sees me, she just glances past me. Her eyes would pause just a fraction of a second on me before moving off to pick someone else, as if contemplating and then deciding that it would be better to pick someone else.
This was all the more apparent during the last class when she had started to pick people to answer questions based on a colour she chose for the day and those who were wearing clothes of that colour or had belongings of that colour would be picked. So last lesson she chose green and I was sitting there wearing a green top and I never got picked.
Of course, I may be overly worried on this seeing as I am usually late and thus pick a seat right at the back of the class. Thus, she may really not have noticed me out of the 100 over students in the lecture room. Or, by the time she got to the back row, she might have gotten enough responses and thus decide to not waste more time, skipping the few people at the back.
Why am I so bothered by this lack of attention? Throughout my years in school, from primary to secondary and then to Junior College, I have always had this expectation of myself to have an answer ready whenever the teacher pops a question. As such, I guess I also unknowingly grew to expect the teacher to pick me to answer questions each time the class keeps silent. This then brings me to my next problem.
As I had said, I usually have an answer ready whenever the teacher asks a question during class. However, this is not the case for Sociology lectures. Most of the time, I find that I am not able to come up with a satisfied answer to the lecturer's question. Indeed, I am still not too sure of the content yet as of now which means I have a lot to catch up on. I am also quite worried that most of the other students that the lecturer picks to answer her questions usually have a ready and well thought out answer which is much better than the ones I come up with. This could be due to me being new to Sociology while there is a fair proportion of the class who are in Year 2. Furthermore, I am still not too confident of applying the content learnt in class to handle questions.
So here's what I've decided to do. First and foremost, getting to lectures on time and even early is the top priority, so that I get front seats. Secondly, I would have to do more reading up of my subject guides and lecture notes to first be sure of the content, theories and memorise the names of important sociologists. Then, with the content, I will then do more writing and get the lecturer to have a look so as to check my progress and understanding/ application of content.
I sure do hope my plan helps:) Jiayous to myself for Sociology!

《愿得一人心》

Just happened to hear this song on the radio recently... and fell in love with it immediately. Very meaningful lyrics in the chorus Very nice melody. 

《愿得一人心》
作词：胡小健
作曲：罗俊霖

曾在我背包小小夹层里的那个人
陪伴我漂洋过海经过每一段旅程
隐形的稻草人
守护我的天真
曾以为爱情能让未来只为一个人

关了灯依旧在书桌角落的那个人
变成我许多年来纪念爱情的标本
消失的那个人
回不去的青春
忘不了爱过的人才会对过往认真 


只愿得一人心
白首不分离
这简单的话语
需要巨大的勇气
没想过失去你
却是在骗自己
最后你深深藏在我的歌声里 只愿得一人心

白首不分离
这清晰的话语
嘲笑孤单的自己
盼望能见到你
却一直骗自己
遗憾你听不到我唱的这首歌 多想唱给你


曾在我背包小小夹层里的那个人
陪伴我漂洋过海经过每一段旅程
隐形的稻草人
守护我的天真
曾以为爱情能让未来只为一个人

关了灯依旧在书桌角落的那个人
变成我许多年来纪念爱情的标本
消失的那个人
回不去的青春
忘不了爱过的人才会对过往认真 


只愿得一人心
白首不分离
这简单的话语
需要巨大的勇气
没想过失去你
却是在骗自己
最后你深深藏在我的歌声里

只愿得一人心
白首不分离
这清晰的话语
嘲笑孤单的自己
盼望能见到你
却一直骗自己
遗憾你听不到我唱的这首歌

只愿得一人心
白首不分离
这简单的话语
需要巨大的勇气
没想过失去你
却是在骗自己
最后你深深藏在我的歌声里

只愿得一人心
白首不分离
这清晰的话语
嘲笑孤单的自己
我很想你
却一直骗自己
遗憾你听不到我唱的这首歌 多想唱给你


As the lyrics go, it takes alot to stick with the one you love until your hair greys. Alot... of sacrifice. time, commitment and love.